Before you read this is all true, I went through this and I still am. Her birthday is in August and that will be the first birthday her twin has had without her.
Somewhere there is a girl wondering why does she have to live like this and someone who could have saved her is wondering the same thing.
Well, I’m wondering that right now because I feel like it’s my fault my best friend is gone and there is nothing I can do about. Everyone is telling it’s not my fault but I feel like I could have stopped her, Because she called me the night before she killed herself, she called like she does every night since we went the that hot June day.She told about her day and I had a feeling that something was wrong, she told me it was nothing at all and I believed she was telling me the truth but I was wrong.
I know Sarah would want me to move on with life and not cry of her death but it’s hard for me because she was one of the only few that got me.the other person who got me dies as well and it feels like I’m alone when I know I’m not. If you would have told me that my best friend would’ve killed herself last February, I would’ve laughed in your face but now I would know that you were telling me the truth. I wonder If I asked what was wrong would she still be here today or would she lied to me and said everything was okay.
People at school joke about killing themselves and I want to know if they really mean it or are just saying it to say it. I hate hearing them say them want to and then remembering Sarah and the fact that she kills herself can’t stop her.she was the brightest person I’ve ever met and I really miss her all the time. So Sarah wrote three letters one to her mom Carie, the second one was to her brother Brayden, and the third and last one was to Me.She told Her Mom to move on with her step-dad John and be happy, She told Brayden that she didn’t want him to forget the promise he made to his real dad before he dies of brain cancer, And
She told her best friend that the world will not end when she dies and to keep go on with life.We had a dream to tour Europe and go to college and help people who need it the most in life.She wants me to keep writing because I use to write stories for her and she wants me to never give up on myself.Sarah was and always be someone who you could talk to about anything in life and she would make everything okay.
Sarah is the best friend you could ask for and I miss her, but she is in a better place now and she won’t worry about us as much as she did when she was alive.
Today Thursday 22, 2018, It’s the day that Sarah killed herself and it’s hard for me to be at school but My Mom doesn’t know about Sarah’s death at all.I hope she never finds out about Sarah’s death because that is the one thing that is keeping me sane right now and not in the crazy house. 7:00 pm tonight is when she was found in her bathroom and she didn’t do it to get known, she did it because she couldn’t handle life anymore so she killed herself. I sometimes wonder if I had something to do with it at all.Everyone is telling me it’s not my fault and I want to believe them but I can’t and I don’t know why.I feel like it’s my fault but deep down in my gut I know it’s not my fault she killed herself, If she was here right now she would yell at me because she told me in the letter that it was not my fault and I shouldn’t think that at all.But I can’t help it and if anyone that was in my place would feel the same way I do.